Posts Tagged ‘general’

the world spins around me

Tuesday, February 2nd, 2010

As the semester starts to get back into the swing of things, I keep worrying that I’ll lose control of my goals/things that might be goals, and make old mistakes.

Maybe it’s because I don’t know what I want, maybe it’s because I don’t really want it. Maybe it’s because I don’t know how to balance my wants with my desire to make others wants happen. Maybe “wanting” is stupid and superficial.

I feel like I’m already starting to just “go through the paces” of school. I don’t like this feeling. I don’t like “going through the paces”. I don’t like things always being the same.

Sameness is boring.

This contemplativeness, it’s either “not like me” or it is me. Thinking for the sake of thinking? Why? Why not? Where? How? Who? If?

Sparkling snow, lit by streetlights
streetlights, powered by electricity
electricity, same thing that’s running this computer that I write with now
computer, distraction, tool, friend
just called a computer ‘friend’.
sorta destroys the meaning of friend, when we can call inanimate, non-thinking objects our friends and people just smile and think “oh, he’s a computer science major”.

Isn’t it a bit… devaluing?

Sometimes I wish my brain was like snow on a sidewalk. I could just shovel all the stuff that’s pretty in it’s own right, but that gets in the way off to the side. It might ruin the purity and perfection of the newly fallen snow, but it wouldn’t bother me or others anymore. The only issue occurs once spring comes, and the snow melts away. All those ideas, lost in their current form, perhaps reconstituting another time to cause my life to be dreary, grey, and wet.

Wow, contemplative-me turned emo-me really, really fast.

emotion as a rational argument? No thanks

Monday, November 9th, 2009

Last week I wrote an article counter the common arguments against gay marriage (in a very tongue-in-cheek manner, I will admit), and ended with a call to arms over the issue of gay marriage, as it pertained to Question 1 on the upcoming Maine election. Needless to say, I’m sure by now most have heard that this referendum passed, and that same-sex marriage is now illegal again in the State of Maine. I for one, am disappointed and disgusted, but this loss raises a valid point which few seem to be willing to address on the national or state level. President Obama addressed it a little bit on the campaign trail, and this sentiment can often be heard in almost all political discussions between friends. How often do you hear people say something similar to “Ugh, how can they be so stupid? I don’t even understand where they’re coming from!”
Now, clearly the “the other side is so dumb” sentiment is dismissive, and unnecessary, but the second portion of this is what I wish to write about. This concept of “I don’t even understand how the other side could reach this conclusion” raises an important point. Part of the premise of our political system is that within a democratic system, the thought processes of the majority will be put into law, but that everyone’s voice will be heard and, at least ideally, considered. However, this seems to be quite the opposite of what is happening. The current political atmosphere seems much more centered around visceral emotional responses to an issue, and I think this is at best unfair and unreasonable.
The United States of America is, to steal a common phrase, a melting pot. That is to say, people from all sorts of ethnic, religious, economic and political  backgrounds live in the United States. Allegedly, all of these people have an equal voice in the way political decisions are made. To paraphrase President Obama, the only way to make sure the law is just and fair to everyone is to be able to carry-on a rational, reasoned discussion about the topic. He was talking about this in the context of his personal religion, and how this would affect his decisions as president, but I feel that there’s a larger point to be taken away from this.
Consider the vote on Tuesday in Maine. It is fairly obvious to anyone who watched the campaigns unfold and the discourse leading up to the vote, fear of change seemed to win the day. Now, this is a rather superficial definition of the reason that the Yes on 1 campaign won, and there’s an argument to be made that the vote was religiously motivated, that fear about the societal affect of same-sex marriage, that it was fundamentally wrong for children to be taught that homosexual couples exist, that the sanctity of marriage would be destroyed, or even that homosexuality is too gross, a disease, or even a biblical abomination were the underlying reasons for why the Yes on 1 campaign won. All of these arguments may have some merit, but the consensus of analysts seems to be that superficially, voter turnout on the No on 1 side just wasn’t there, and this was probably because “protection of marriage rights” is much less of an emotional issue than “protecting the institution that has been in place for thousands of years”.
Note the word emotional in the last sentence. This is the crux of the issue. Politics within the United States has turned into a visceral emotional issue. President Obama arguably won on this very campaign, he inspired people by using very emotional mantras, “hope” and “change”.
This is directly the reason religion seems to have such a stronghold on the United States political atmosphere, religion is, for the majority of religious people, a very, very emotional issue. However, emotion is something that is very difficult to convey to others. Have you ever felt something, tried to explain it and given up because they “just wouldn’t understand”? Or consider a political topic that is very emotionally charged, like abortion. Much of the discourse over abortion centers around the “abortion is murder” argument. Now, whether you’re for or against abortion, I think you would have to look long and hard to find someone who has no opinion about abortion. Even those that one may encounter that say “I don’t know much about the issue” usually finish with “but I feel X way about it”. Again, not the use of the word “feel”.
As President Obama said (albeit not directly about political discourse in the United States), the only way to ensure that everyone feels like they are being represented is to make the discourse founded in intellectual, reasoned discussion. One is allowed to feel however one wants on a subject, but the argument presented ought to be as devoid of emotion as possible, or it’s hard to find a common ground.
To use the gay marriage referendum in Maine again, much of the discourse from the Yes on 1 campaign was very emotionally charged. The No on 1 campaign was accused of “redefining marriage” (arguably a fairly personal attack on those married couples in the State of Maine). While the No on 1 campaign presented a very well thought out, intellectual argument about how same-sex marriage wasn’t different from straight marriage, how these are just people that deserve equal rights, how the other states that have legalized gay marriage aren’t suffering from any societal degeneration, and even how same-sex marriage does not affect the economy (and in some cases boosts the economy) of the states that have legalized it. Obviously, these arguments failed against what seemed to be a very simple, consistent, emotional message.
It’s clear that many political issues are emotionally charged (abortion, gay marriage, immigration, insert-your-topic-of-choice-here), but choosing to react to emotions first, and try and justify your emotions second is the wrong way to go about having a debate that will sufficiently satisfy every party. Often times emotional issues cause people to zealously stake out a position, and subsequently not budge.
In order to move this country forward we, as a whole, must start forcing political discourse to be entirely grounded in an intellectually supported way. Once this expectation has been laid down, the “abortion is murder” argument will need to be supported by a working definition of murder, why abortion falls under this category, why a fetuses life is more important than that of the mother, and a plethora of other questions. The same-sex marriage debate will no longer be able to use “fundamental redefinition of marriage” as a mantra without providing a definition of marriage, and evidence to support that this definition really has never changed throughout the course of history. The healthcare reform debate will have to actually support that “death panels” will occur, providing proper citation directly from the bill.
Fearmongering, hatred, and prejudice will no longer be valid political arguments, and will instead be marginalized in preference of reasoned political debate. Emotion is clearly an important part of being human, and we need not remove it from who we are. However, emotion ought to take a secondary role in the national and state level political discussion.

let’s roll around in apathy

Wednesday, March 25th, 2009

I’ve been thinking recently about our current political situation, here in the United States. You hear stories all the time about “President Obama sides with the RIAA when it comes to copyright law”, or “10 more US soldiers died in Iraq today” or “Huge hurricanes expected yet again, likely due to global warming” and everyone reads these articles. They look at them and think “Oh wow, that’s horrible.” but it seems as though no one cares.

I acknowledge that I’m pre-disposed to care about things. I’d like to look at Vietnam, for instance. Yes, a lot of parallels have been drawn between Vietnam and the war in Iraq, and I don’t want to re-iterate the discourse that has already been had. I do however want to say, part of the reason the United States left Vietnam was because the American people were protesting. Obviously there was other stuff involved, but the protest movement had an affect. You will often hear in political discourse the idea of “pulling out of Iraq”. Many seem to think this is a good idea. Yet we haven’t done it, Obama promises to, but it hasn’t happened. Why? I would argue the government doesn’t see it as that pressing of an issue. It’s harsh, because there are obviously people’s lives on the line. We need to make the government know we care about something.

Hurricanes? Same concept. Yes, when An Inconvenient Truth came out, there seemed to be a wave of public awareness around the topic of global warming. Yes, many people have moved away from their SUVs towards either hybird SUVs, or the pretty well known Toyota Prius. Yes this idea of “being green” is prevalent, but only so prevalent so as it convenient to switch. People are starting to use re-usable grocery bags, compact flourescent lightbulbs, etc. etc. However, the majority of the population? Not willing to change their lifestyle enough to have a big impact on petroleum usage and carbon emissions. Obviously hurricanes aren’t completely related to global warming, but the level and intensity of hurricanes that we’ve seen recently can pretty clearly be attributed to climate change. Maybe the public should start showing they care about climate change, or the lives of those people being subjected to the hurricanes (or other natural disasters in other parts of the world, for that matter).

President Obama siding with the RIAA? Yes, granted, not as many people know or care about artists rights in the same way I do, it’s not terribly pressing to many people. That said, it affects many many people. Remember the older woman who never owned a comptuer in her life, but was sued by the RIAA for copyright infringement? I bet she cares a lot about current RIAA policy. Maybe letting Obama’s administration know that the public won’t stand for more RIAA shenanigans would be a good thing?

I know not everyone needs or can care about every topic, that would be difficult. I also acknowledge that not everyone has the same opinion on any one topic. That’s totally fair, that’s part of being human and relating to other humans. I don’t even care if you’re out protesting the completely opposite view of my own (although you’re wrong :-P ), what I do care about is showing our government that we care. If we sit idlly by, and complain about the way things are going to our neighbors, that never gets back to government (unless you’re lucky enough to live next to 1600 Pennsylvanian Ave., Washington DC). If we as a population become more vocal, more involved, and more willing to change the way we do things to be more in line with our beliefs on a topic, that can only be a good thing. If all the people in cities who drive about 20 mi. every day to work were willing to push for affordable electric cars, we’d be able to cut our carbon emission use as a country by an enormous amount.

I’m not placing blame, instead, I’m more asking anyone and everyone to decide what issues they care about, and do something to help move that issue forward. As a country, we find ourselves running into more and more issues, with the economy, healthcare, the wars in Iraq and Afghanistan, intellectual property laws, immigration and homeland security policies, and even with some sections of the population, drug policy. If you want the government to change, you’re going to need to do something, instead of just sitting idly by and saying “man, something needs to change”.

i can haz gewd grammeh plz? kthxbai

Thursday, March 12th, 2009
to UMMSTUDENTS@lists.umn.edu
subject [UMMSTUDENTS] check boxes at po b4 lvg

Dear Students,

A reminder:   Please check your UMM post office boxes before leaving for spring break.
Have a wonderful spring break.

I want you to look at this email that I received from the school today. In particular, look at the subject like. More specifically, look at where it says “check boxes at po b4 lvg”. Now you see the issue. No? You don’t see the issue?

Let me explain. It’s very unfortunate that young people, as it stands currently, tend to use ‘txt speak’ when writing, either on instant messengers, using SMS (text messaging), and even email. The trends have shown that young people are using ‘txt speak’ more and more. Now, This doesn’t entirely annoy me (ok, it does, but that’s not what we’re talking about), because obviously SMS only allows messages to be sent using 160 characters or less. There is something to be said for shortening what you’ve written in order to make it fit the allotted length. There might even be something to be said about using bastardized abbreviations when using an instant messenger, to allow for quick responses while you’re working on other things.

I get angered/annoyed at my peers when they use ‘txt speak’ in normal conversations via instant messenger, it’s more forgivable when done via SMS, but it’s absolutely unacceptable in email. First, email has no character limit. Second, email is a medium intended for longer responses, and thus requires some attention when writing. By the time you’ve decided to write an email, you’re already opening up your mail client of choice, and you’ve already started the process.

Furthermore, one of the things that annoys me the most is when adults start using ‘txt speak’. Yes, it’s a little bit hypocritical, because it’s holding adults to a higher standard than I’m holding my peers to. With reason though. Adults haven’t grown up with technology in the same way myself and my peers have. Obviously there are exceptions to this rule, but overall, adults are less familiar with technology than those of my generation. Furthermore, for years it has been the adults who have been claiming that technology is ruining the English language, that students are to the point of submitting academic papers with abbreviations or ‘txt speak’ in them.

I agree, as it happens. ‘txt speak’ is causing my generation to write differently. I occasionally find myself writing ‘w/’ in a paper instead of ‘with’, but I go back and correct it, because I don’t want to ruin our language. I don’t want to devalue spelling/grammar, I think good writing skills is crucial to expression and communication.

My point is, it’s bad enough when my generation uses ‘txt speak’, because it means we’re moving towards bastardization of our language in the future. It’s worse when ‘adults’ (those older than my generation) use ‘txt speak’ (particularly in email), because it means they’ve already started corrupting the language, and my generation has a lot less work to do. This isn’t a good thing!

I propose an active movement on the part of my generation to fight against the ‘txt speak’ that seems so pervasive. Start using proper grammar, proper spelling, and proper punctuation.

Also, let me just say: inb4 ‘grammar nazi’, n00b.

wind blows the prairie grass

Sunday, February 22nd, 2009

I wonder if I’m too withdrawn. People go through life feeling, and reacting to feelings, and that’s not how I look at the world. I go through life trying not to feel, because I can’t control a feeling. Maybe I’m self centered, maybe I need to be in control. Not control over everyone, just… my life. I want to control me. Feelings are the wind. No one controls the wind, sometimes it hits you hard, and you fall over. Sometimes it’s blowing softly, and you know it’s there, but it’s not a detriment. Sometimes there’s no wind at all, and everything is calm. Without wind, there is no external influence (ignoring gravity, etc.), and everything is at it’s base state. Occasionally the wind will happen in short, strong bursts. These bursts affect the surroundings enough to modify their base state, and when the wind leaves, the plants etc. have all been changed.

Wind can be a very good thing, it can provide energy, and push a sail boat towards it’s goal of landing safely, so as to continue a journey. Wind is also the root cause of sand storms, enormous waves that tip sail boats over (not only wind, but you’re screwing up the metaphor), and can lead to huge forest fires.

Farmers used to guard against wind, by putting up barriers (generally rows of big trees along the edges of a field) that wouldn’t be affected by the wind, so as to protect the things behind the barriers. I want tree barriers. I want to be protected from the windfeelings, and I don’t want my base state modified. Or, if my base state (natural growth pattern, if we’re following the metaphor) is modified, I want to be the one modifying it (I’m not getting into whether or not the modification is part of the natural growth pattern, or if it’s actually a modification).

There needs to be some sort of happy medium. Complete withdrawal isn’t happy either, because no one wants to be alone. However, full on windfeelings is overbearing, and causes uncontrolled burns.

New Blog

Friday, May 16th, 2008

It’s a new blog, we’ll see how this goes. Hopefully at some point I’ll be able to host this on my own server, and possible export it to Wordpress, but we’ll see how that turns out. For now, check out my ramblings.

EDIT: Switched my blog to wordpress… I like it better. Also, should be easier to export when I get my own server.

-JTS